Obscenities of the mind

My dear sick little nerd

2007-01-03T09:04:11Z

i miss Rebus, and want to spend an entire day with her until she's absolutely sick of me!

Answers for questions I never asked

2006-10-17T02:14:29Z

You're on my livejournal again for one stinkin day, and this is what I get to read?

Frankie and I broke up after two years. We had to. All we'd ever do was fight and argue, just about the stupidest and most insignificant things. I wont specify what, but they were pretty retarded, on both our parts. Thats where Justin came into the picture. I realize now he was a rebound; a really really really long rebound. All of you were mostly around for that. I don't have to go into detail. Good? Good! Because I sure as fuck don't want to. I could write a fucking book on that kid and it wouldn't be the nicest. Sort of a Howard Stern meets Charles Manson sorta book ... anyways, really really horrible. After I finally broke up with that kid I had to take a vacation to Cuba to get rid of all the stress he caused me. Worst. Relationship. Ever! Anyways who was around can agree on that. Shit I only took him back b/c I'm was piss drunk. I was going to shut up. Shutting up.

Like I said, I could write a fucking book on that kid. All in all, Justin was the worst relationship and boyfriend I EVER had. Ever. If there were good times, he found a way to spoil them. I'm glad hes finally with someone as 'mature' as him, b/c he always said I was way too immature. LOL. Shes cute though, I'll give him that much.

I suppose it hurts me, because I never saw myself as a bad boyfriend, or perhaps I just never wanted to, due to the fact that I was usually depressed enough that I lost someone who meant alot to me, and to know that I was the biggest waste of time in her life, well that's just dandy.

I'm not going to get upset.
I'm surprised, but no i'm not upset.
I'm actually glad I now know this. In a different sense, it makes me feel better that I'm not with her anymore.

But can I ask why you still talk to me? You made it seem like you were my prisoner. If I'm so bad, then why do you still talk to me? Why do you care about what I say or think or do? Bah, I really dont care anymore.
I just kind of fear the unexpected now...
Because I never would've guessed this.

I am removing you from my friends list though. I know it wasn't intentional on your part, but your entries never cease to cause me undesired stress when my mind should be focused on more important things, like school.
Don't take it the wrong way. It's just better off the way it used to be. I'm sure you'll understand.

Oh well. Time to go finish studying for my midterm.
And thank you Catia for trying to help. It was the lone brightspot in this mush, and it shined brightly. <3

SWEEEEEEEEEET!!!

2006-10-11T05:27:34Z

hahahaha this is awesome!! one of my posts for the Toronto Star newspaper got posted IN THE PAPER!
I beat out thousands of other posts worldwide!

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Voices: Maple Leafs performance
Oct. 6, 2006. 11:00 AM

We asked readers for their thoughts on the Maple Leafs.
Here is a sample of reader's responses:

Leafs 6, Senators 0 (Oct. 5)

Well(wood), what do the critics think of this game? The Leafs looked good in the 4-1 loss as they had many scoring chances (that they didn't get last year against Ottawa), but tonight they showed that they will be the surprise team of the NHL this year.
Dave Kearney, Antigonish, N.S.

Go figure. The alignment of the planets, parity in the league, who knows. Go figure. Good bounces and a good effort. Nice job boys. Tip: Don't bet on NHL games, it's too unpredictable.
Shawn Travers, Seoul

Now that's what I like to see - a little jump, a lot of spark to their game! If they keep up the energy (or even step it up another level, like Coach Maurice wants) the Leafs will prove to be very competitive. Go Leafs Go!
Bal Virk, Brampton

It was nice to finally see some regular season success go the Maple Leafs' way, but let's not forget there are 80 more games to play. Was this a fluke? Or can they do this consistently? It was wonderful to watch the Sens get creamed at home! Any Leaf fan would love it, and I know I sure did!
Justin Marangoni, Toronto

I've been following the Leafs this year with particular interest. A lot of people of mentioned that they are not sure if there are people that can score, besides Sundin. So far, I have seen a team play better defensively than they have in years, they move the puck with speed and precision, and they forecheck until there is a turnover. That's hockey people.
Jason Taylor, Trenton, Ont.

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I know it's corny and all, but I leave posts all the time, and I finally got selected.
This is great! I feel like a million bucks! :D

GO LEAFS GO!!

http://www.thestar.com/NASApp/cs/ContentServer?pagename=thestar/Layout/Article_Type1&c=Article&pubid=968163964505&cid=1160042503740&col=1053692575155&call_page=TSS_Main&call_pageid=968867503640&call_pagepath=Sports/Index

chairfan89 @ 2006-04-28T11:26:00

2006-04-28T15:29:05Z

So this is the longest we've gone without talking. How do you find it?
Cuz it's weird.
I used to go nuts cuz not a single day would go by without thinking about you.

Now... you're not there. In body or in mind.

I just read your entry, and I'm riddled with feelings of content and guilt.
I know you're sick, and I know you havent told me the whole story in regards to your health.

Sometimes I felt like my presence helped you, even if it didnt help me. Because my health wasn't to be worried about... regardless of what you think.
I would hate myself if my abandoning you worsened your condition.
I still love you, and think you were... are, a beautiful friend.

Fuck I'm so fucking confused, and hate this...
I wish it wasn't this difficult.

Please be ok Rebecca...
Please dont go away forever...

chairfan89 @ 2006-04-11T00:16:00

2006-04-11T04:17:20Z

I'm not going to make you a number.

Dear Rebecca

Please stay out of my life forever.
And do your absolute best. You never loved me, you never made me feel like I wanted you to.
Atleast do me this.
Block me, delete me, dont answer my calls, throw away everything i've given you.
Stay away for good. That is all.
Oh yea...
I hate you.

Goodbye.

Now we can be friends!

2006-02-06T13:47:12Z

Ok I'm a geek, and created a myspace for my acoustic moniker Tastes of a Dream. There aren't any songs up yet, but I'm going to start recording within the next 2-3 weeks, if not sooner, so be patient. :P

If you're impatient (like me obviously) then add me and spread the love.

www.myspace.com/tastesofadream

Tastes of a Dream

2006-02-02T01:56:53Z

Here it is folks, for the first time ever!
I've decided to give the solo thing a shot, so I took some of the new songs I wrote over the past few months, and I've thrown together my own moniker...

The song list is in there, but incase you can't make it out, the song list goes as follows:

Beautiful Tragedy
In My Life
Glass and Rain
The Edge of My Mind
Don't Believe
Horizons
Treasures and Tools
Julianna's Song
High Above City Lights
Wake

And just for everyone's information, I have NOT disbanded Regicide. We are still going strong, I just wanted to give the solo thing a shot.
Tastes of a Dream will consist of acoustic/keyboard tunes that pull influences from artists such as Matthew Good, Daniel Johns, Dallas Green, and the sort. Once I've completed everything, I'll find a keyboardist and perhaps do some live shows. Hehehe, wouldn't it be cool to open up for my other band? :P I'm really excited folks, some of these songs are pretty cool, and definitely not your typical hard rock tunes.

I'll post more once I get a better idea of things.
Lemme know what you think!
<33333

Watch that first step...

2005-12-20T08:18:18Z

Sometimes... it all feels like

Cute.

JOIN!!!

2005-11-26T17:09:34Z

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chairfan89 @ 2005-09-08T14:24:00

2005-09-08T18:24:37Z

Make sure you JOIN!! And tell all your friends!

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Friends Only

2004-04-10T12:06:00Z

Sorry. Gotta be a homie to read...

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